little confused not that i'm very so what

hello loyal reader...............................................s. how have u all been? midterms for me n the like. have you missed the funk? i've had a problem or few. no lie this has kept me up at night, first off- women problems. i have some lady friends that have been getting closer to me. a few of them want more of me and i want that too but i know is i choose to do the same with all of them then i will surely lose them all, as friends and more. further more i've realized that when i talk to a female past a certain point then the next guy they date they get pregnant by them...........................................................is it weird that i notice this or weird that its a common place?.......................................i'm seriously struggling with this.........................the other problem i have is that my mother has a new friend........................i personally dont think that my own father was good enough for her so subsequently no man ever will be nor can be, but obviously she feels otherwise. when she tells me about him i really want to interupt her and tell her that i honestly dont care about who this guy is or what he's about nor where he's going in life. never would i give my mother an ultimatum of me or him, i feel that would be outrageous but i seriously dont give a crap about this guy or his 19year old daughter. i would rather them not exist in my life at any compacity...................just being honest about it..................................i have fallen behind in my work and all the things that i just typed are what's eating me up...............................2 girls i really care about and 4 i'd rather have as friends............................... darn this heart of mine, been broke a thousand times. each time its put back together it still misses pieces from before. incompletely, artificially, rebuilt. i love in metal and oil. bring a blow torch and some wires sweetheart you'll need it to fix me.............................until next time people be cool be smooth............................................. matter of fact be velvet in the refridgerator,..............................no matter what i love you all.........................even if your flyness doesnt match mine......................especially if you flyness doesnt match mine. BOOM IS AS BOOM DOES............................ If you cant catch a ride take the bus as u fuss......hey, i used to.